huh.

it's interesting how re-reading your own notes can really bring about a change in you.. put things back into order.

6 months ago, i was so excited to be where i am now. i fought to be where i am right now. not everything was handed to me. it took a lot of convincing and talking and calculating and debating, and then a lot of writing and saving and working and pleading and planning. i wanted this so bad, and now i'm so ready to be content instead of get the best of it.

i have my whole life to sit in my room and watch re-runs. i let a great time slip me by today for the comfort of my own bed, and that's such a silly thing. i got up, i got ready, i did my hair, i did my makeup and i got dressed to go down to the oscars and watch everyone come in. and yet, when it was time to go, i decided against it... so i could sit in my apartment and work. what? who does that? i'm making a promise to myself to live it up while i'm here. i think i owe it to the version of myself 6 months ago.

now.. kind of going OPPOSITE that.. christina and i had a great night on friday! we ventured downtown, a place i had yet to visit (and upon looking at a map later.. realized i didn't really venture that deep into it at all). we had intentions of going to The Rooftop Bar at The Standard hotel downtown (there's a west hollywood one, but i heard the rooftop bar was way cooler). After driving around for 30 minutes, FINALLY found parking, fit between two cars with (literally.. not exaggerating at all) 4 inches of space on each side (i had to PULL my way out of the drivers side.. it was ridiculous). got all the way up to the roof and found out you needed to go all the way back down to get a wristband! they should have marked this somewhere. ran into a nice guy in the elevator whom i think worked in the industry, he told us the bar wasn't worth it and to go somewhere else. went across the street to the Library Bar where there was a 30 minute wait. we ended up talking to the bouncer because we were just desperate to find anywhere to go. he let us cut the line, which we were both so shocked about, and came in after to talk to us. so, thank you Sterling. you made our night. the Library Bar was super cool--tiny, but had great atmosphere. a nice table with wooden benches, tons of bar stools, a few huge leather couches, and then some more leather couches and chairs scattered around a fireplace that was surrounded by bookshelves filled with books. it was a classy place with more mid-aged people than what you see in the hollywood bars, but it was a great place for conversation with christina and some other random people. after a couple glasses of wine, we headed to a place a few blocks away called the Golden Gopher which was just SUPER cool. huge ceilings, exposed brick and stone walls, cement floors, architectural pieces around, lots of glass and tvs.. awesome lighting.. just a really cool place. i had a few glasses of water since i was the one driving. the drink prices didn't seem that bad for either place ($9 for a glass of wine at the library bar, $10 for a french martini at the golden gopher. consistent with the rest of LA, thus far!) but it was a cool place.

drove back home, had a great night! saturday i went to try a cupcake place called Sprinkles in Beverly Hills,, but when Adrianna (my roommate) and i rolled up, we saw a line about a block long, so we kept on driving past it. i'll have to try it another time.. it got a bit chilly and we didnt' feel like waiting for a cupcake.. no matter HOW good they seemed. i'm positive they would have been worth the wait, though.

now.. just watched the oscars, did some work, and its back to FRIENDS for me! i started season one over last night, and i'm hooked all over again. i think i've watched 10 episodes so far? yikes. this is going to not work with my new goal of not wasting my time here.. hmm
:)